didn't have the guts to publish it then.why?dunno, but now...i know...

(original date- november 01, 2004)
(original title- dear 25)

anne06

hmm... its true, its so hard to ask for an apology and same with giving one.

you might think im so full of my self for doing this, but i couldn't care less, im doing this for me.

i don't need to intimidate, discriminate, and non the less waste my tie in being angry, bitter, or whatever you call it. apparently it'll never do me good (infact it never did me good).

i forgive you. i do, its about time, don't you think?, but i must admit, i don't have enough to forget.

im not in anyway washing my hand on this matter, all im implying is, now, i have the heart to forgive, setting aside the huge pain and suffering i've gone through.

and for that, im asking for apology, you know, for the 'hoe' thing. i never really meant that, i was just angry, and i wasn't thinking then. i was in no position, and still am, in saying your a hoe in anyway...im sorry...

i've learned and relearned that i have to move on, eventhough some things have had no closure somehow. i know, now, that things don't have one anyway.

im not bitter anymore, not even angry, or whatever adjective or adverb there is to describe what i felt then...all i want now is to be happy...be happy for me...

im starting to love myself again...and maybe thats the fault, from the start pa, i forget to love me...

this...this...this was never easy, pero oklang, sabi nga nila, the more you learn the hard way, the more you gain wisdom (or some sort- grin)

still theres hope..hope na sana soon, maintindihan ko,kung why things are like this..

ill be lying if ill say im happy for you...i want to.somehow....but now, i cant, and thats what im sorry for...