silent mode

its very hard to control myself to not be soo sooo attached to my techie gadget...very hard!darn! to think its wasn't inborn, it was not in my gene code, i have never been a techie for the first 14 years of my life, but now, it like giving up living! wierd thing...tsktsktsk

i have a goal...according to close friend, maybe what i need to be heard is to be silent for once...just this once...

and by that....

im doing the silent mode...

now...

well atleast on my mobile!hahahah

******

im not the typical girlfriend

im not chinita

i don't have a rosy white skin

im not a carbon copy of the famous characters on those korea novelas

in short

im not your ordinary guys type of girlfriend

im more of the bohemian kind

i look more like the singer of "im like a bird"

and im taunted....really

i don't know why he had the shift of "taste" for the past 4 years...

im the jade with the bunch of diamond exes he had...

do i need to feel pleased???

******

who are you?

for the past three weeks i had been under emotional breakdown, a downfall, depression, a felt alot of angst...every little thing is negative, passive, futile...

normally a girl like me, only needs a little comfort, understanding, human warmth, a pinch of romance and a little sentiment.

instead

i have been subject to scrutiny of the least person i thought would do that to me, my so called fiance!

you are not the person i knew. you're not anymore the man i love, the man i dreamnt of being with me through the grayer years...it's not you anymore...
who are you???
what did you do to my boo?

and it pains me to say this, but you drove me away...

well
i guess
that's free will

you had yours

now

it's my turn

******

it really suprise me, how a rejection, makes a person much more stronger...

******

groupie

guilty!
i was and still am a groupie (or whatever you call it)
i live by knowing i have THIS around, behind, beside me...

3...it's safe to say, that... atleast i have (i know i have) 3 groups behind, around and beside me...through fun times and well, good times!!!hahahaha...well.... i dont normally share bad times with a group, it makes things more complicated, atleast complicated for me, heheheheh...basta, take it from me...

1st group...the schoolmates. the people i spend almost 300 days every year. the people you see on the earliest of morning through the darkest of the night. the people i had the chance to brain storm with. the people with goals...

2nd group... the people who introduced and made me close to the ever famous night life,lolz. the people who saw me through the soberest moments up to the groggiest one. people i share alot of dancing, laughing, drinking with...the people equipt with alot of carefree genes...

3rd group... the people i know because... i dunno...coz we all met on the way...

well the whole point of this post is....

tonight
i going out...
with
my 3rd group...

tonight
im gonna say goodbye to the one person i met on the way...
his living for military academy
and by the time he comes back
i won't be around to welcome him home...

infact
ill probably wont see these people for a long time, after summer....

but i sure hope i can bring them all...
but i can't
so
i just have to settle in finding new friends on my way....