Thursday, April 21

You know when i asked you to choose,you said i shouldn't it's hard for you..
When i said, i thought all this is just a phase,my mistake,its already a commitment. You said you "I don't think so..."you basically said it's not a commitment..implying that im right, its just a phase...how come if its just a phase/fling its so hard to make up your mind who to settle for?coz the funny thing is,you said im the one you love..
At this point, things haven't been credible anymore..

it hasn't been...
but where am i?
Im still here..
Understanding
Believing
Taking it all
Though all you said isn't exactly pairing on your action, im still here...
believing all of it...

fool me once, shame on you..fool me twice, shame on me..
how many has it been?it must've been a dozen shame on me then...
but you see, im still here
even if your actions doesn't fit the hope you give me, im still here

even if it's an obvious fact that it's never gonna work,im still here...
This is not anymore about me..it's about you..you have issues...It's not right you accuse me of being blind, after all the things I have done to make this thing work, you say im blind...please take it back..coz you might regret it..

They say in love, it's real when its spontaneous...now theres nothing spontaneous with this, is there? It's so hard for you to think of what to do,coz maybe your just forcing your self to do it..
I told you before, im willing to let you go, im not selfish, thats how much i love you..i just don't want you lyin gto yourself...are you sure your doing the right thing?are you surecoz the mere fact na you have to think so hard of it,makes it more of a confussion..
this is not anymore about you and her, me and you

it has grown much more bigger than the both of us..

as much as i hate you for messing it up like this, i can't, coz im part of this,i had my share...
i dont need i cycle..the more you make this longer the more things become blurrer

the more its get confusing the more i get frustrated the more it gets deeper..
i dont like it that way..
i said before i cant make decision without you..but i guess i cant wait for you anymore.. have to think of myself..i cant wait for things to get worse than it already has...
ive become cynical because of this..never wanted to be one

just a realist..
pagod na ako

pagod kana
tapusin mo na
pull the trigger and end all this...
your goal can never happen, you can not achieve a happy ending for both party, it doesnt work that way...it doesn't..its either someone's happy and someones hurt...life still must go on..dont make it a life long achievement to make both parties happy coz its never gonna happen..
you say you care for me so much..bakit ganito...

you know whats frustrating..words can't decribe what i feel anymore..it has pass that stage...and thats really frustrating...really..
i can even use all the harse word towards you, towards her..but at the end of the day, it doesn't change the fact that still im frustrated...
maybe your right ill never be happy with you after all this..so what for?useless na diba..then pull the trigger and endl my missery...
its hard coz you make it hard, you make use of your brain so much...its really not that hard..you say your so concern of my situation, look, your making it worse with this stage..deal with it then whatever, then whatever...
besides if your that sincere, you dont need to think of it when you said im the one you want..

bakit kelangan isipin pa ang gagawin...
dahil ba sa ikaw din hindi naniwala sa sinabi mo?
wala n akong igagalit...

wala naako nalang kung hindi o kaya
ako nalangako nalang gagawa

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