9-17-7
2:30 pm
I’m a choker
My boyfriend says I’m choking him
I’m 12 hours away from my boyfriend and he feels choked
Clearly there is something wrong and I’m not aware of it. Or maybe I’m just not attentive. Or there’s the part that maybe, just maybe, I’m fooling myself.
I know I’m a damage “goods” even from the beginning, but what the hell am I doing wrong that this, this that I have now, is starting to fall apart. What is it?
I’m sane, I like to believe I am, I’m not that optimistic, so as everybody else. I was once a romantic, it didn’t go very well. I’m teaching myself to be less attached. I’m freaking sexual!!! I’m a whole, but what the hell is making everything fall into pieces…damn it! What the hell!!!
Seriously, I hate my life now. It could not be any worse than it is now. I didn’t pass the boards, that I worked my ass off for 2 months. I don’t know what to do for my future; I’m torn between choices that don’t, in the slightest, amuse me. Plus my boyfriends’ feeling choked.
I think of how superficial my angst, but really, for a girl like me, this could not be any worst…worst…
I’m an adult…nobody warned me this is happening…how will I handle it? How will I make it stop?
Urgh!! I need a beer…beer always helps…superficially…
2:30 pm
I’m a choker
My boyfriend says I’m choking him
I’m 12 hours away from my boyfriend and he feels choked
Clearly there is something wrong and I’m not aware of it. Or maybe I’m just not attentive. Or there’s the part that maybe, just maybe, I’m fooling myself.
I know I’m a damage “goods” even from the beginning, but what the hell am I doing wrong that this, this that I have now, is starting to fall apart. What is it?
I’m sane, I like to believe I am, I’m not that optimistic, so as everybody else. I was once a romantic, it didn’t go very well. I’m teaching myself to be less attached. I’m freaking sexual!!! I’m a whole, but what the hell is making everything fall into pieces…damn it! What the hell!!!
Seriously, I hate my life now. It could not be any worse than it is now. I didn’t pass the boards, that I worked my ass off for 2 months. I don’t know what to do for my future; I’m torn between choices that don’t, in the slightest, amuse me. Plus my boyfriends’ feeling choked.
I think of how superficial my angst, but really, for a girl like me, this could not be any worst…worst…
I’m an adult…nobody warned me this is happening…how will I handle it? How will I make it stop?
Urgh!! I need a beer…beer always helps…superficially…
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