10-11-07

1:31 PM

THIS IS SO NOT THE DRAMA

When are you gonna stop watching my radar?clearly, it's either you misinterpreted my POST or that you think everything i do and post revolves around you??

THIS IS NOT A PERSONAL VENDETTA AGAINST YOU

This is me, simply owning an online journal, hence giving me the sole power to relive whatever bad or good memories i have because IT'S MY BLOG.IT'S MY ONLINE JOURNAL.MINE.

Let me get this straight, you tell me, I'm this delusional, pathetic, stupid, naive, clueless girl who mops around a "dream", right?So, on a point of view of a deranged and delusional pathetic stupid girl, I'll ask you this,why are you aware of everything deranged I do?I was under the impression you don't care?enlighten me,because I'm not just delusional now, I'm delusional and confused.

You don't care, but you react to my post.

hmmm

that really doesn't sound like "not caring" you know...

As for you MR, you are beyond your brain if you think I'm still not over you.really.out of your mind.yah yah yah yah I'm sick,I know, you make me sick.

IT'S MY BLOG, STOP READING MY BLOG COZ IT'S NOT FOR YOU.

If you can't stop it, maybe you're the one who's not over me?

(now that sounds nicer...but then again...BOOHOO)what ever!!!

AND FOR THE RECORD. IT MAY NOT MAKE ANY DIFFRENCE, BUT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO RUINED ME, SO YOU DON'T GET TO CALL ME PATHETIC, DELUSIONAL AND OR INSANE.YOU DON'T.YOU JUST DON'T

I'ts a good thing that fetus did'nt live.It's a good thing...

Guilty people do this you know...monitors the radar of the people they did the harm with...

STOP READING MY BLOG COZ I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT YOU DON'T GIVE A SHIT.

IT'S SIMPLY MATH REALLY, PEOPLE THAT DON'T CARE, DON'T READ.PEOPLE THAT DO CARE, READ.SO I'M GUESSING ONE OF WHICH IS YOU.

THE CYBER WORLD IS NOT THAT SMALL, I'M NAIVE, BUT EVEN I KNOW IT,YOU JUST MAKE IT SMALL.
DON'T YOU THINK MAKING OVERATED COMMENTS FO MY POST IS FEEDING ME?REMEMBER, I'M DELUSIONAL AND PATHETIC AND DERANGED AND ALL THAT STUFF..I'M JUST SAYING...

THAT'S MY EXCUSE,

WHATS YOURS??

MY LIFE IS NOT YOURS TO CONCERN WITH.YOU ARE NOT PART OF WHO I'AM NOW.WHAT I DO WITH MY LIFE NOW err MY BLOG IS NOT A BUSINESS OF YOURS.IF I CHOOSE TO RELIVE AND RETELL EVERY INCH AND MOMENT THAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE IS MY SOLE BUSINESS.MINE ALONE AND YOU SHOULDN'T CARE LESS COZ YOU SAID IT YOURSELF YOU DON'T CARE.STOP CARING.YOU SOUND MORE PATHETIC THAN I AM.

WE ARE ALL PARANOID, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ADMIT THAT.
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9-29-7

11:36 PM

THINK ABOUT THIS

There's this disc jockey i hear on the radio, on legazpi's favorite FM station, Mr Freddy chicken, he keeps on saying everytime he signs out:

IF YOU CAN'T BE GOOD, BE NICE.

err...so if I'm nice all the time, does that mean, i'm not good?or if i'm good, i can't be nice?hmm i'm always niceso if im good and not nice, i'll do this.

Is there a light bulb somewhere that lights up everytime i say something or do something?is the light bulb somewhre near someone who doesn't care but apparently needs to know "oh there she goes again being futile"

light up?

now?

how about now?

no?

hmm

now?

REALIZATION:if you guttly say you don't care and don't give a crap and all, how come you know?two light bulbs perhap??i can't help but wonder, a person can never say he/she doesn't care if he/she knows something, everytime she happens to be not caring (yeah,even my kid niece figured that out)

so if i'm not nice, i would say something like...are you making me believe you don't care, or are you making yourself believe so? coz really. if this is NOT CARING, this level, i don't reach... i don't

if i'm not nice...

but then again

i wanna be nice

so

switch off.