I admit, I'm like a recovering addict.sometimes I feel urges to do something, they call it relapse.but damn well I try to stop me..I think of happy thoughts..I think of how my actions will make the bad guys feel so in tune with my life..I think of how I've grown as a person who came from something really bad but survived and made something worthwhile of herself.I think of all the thingss I have that those bad people don't..and then, the urges stop..

and thank god I'm not being stupid anymore..

lets put it this way...

33 days ago?someone relapsed

someone pathetic gave in to the urge..

and that someone made the good guys feel pity for them

that someone has always been and will always be affected of who I am

even if that someone forces herself to deny all the facts

even if..

please get well soon...