December 11 2008
Thurs.
1:18 am

few days ago I went to visit sean in manila, well technically the whole purpose of my "visiting forces agreement" is for sean...and ces but knowing me and knowing how screwed up my plans end up being...I really can never have anything...anyways the point of the technicality is that my family secretly wants me having my few trips to manila all the time (the reason I choose to believe this Una explainable detail is still unknown to me) so they, my family, even my dad, who really tries to make me feel that the right place for me is being here, in bicol, with him, even the guy SECRETLY wants my trip coz they make me buy them want they want and make me want to buy what they want. so even if i leave here with just an overnight tote at hand I always end up paying more than double with all the excess baggage that happens to tag me along home one more.

seriously...the point I'm writing this post is not for all luggage drama i get when traveling...I'm diverting..trust me my point is way out of the above.

during my last trip to visit sean, i had an Epiphany...

one night he was out for work doing the grave yard shift and i was left all alone on his house and the next morning he woke me up with a kiss..

the Epiphany is..

i really liked that he does that..on mornings.. sean may not be the sweetest guy ever but trust me it felt comfort...like eating my favorite comfort food kinda comfort...

i really like that he likes me there when he comes home...

and i think that's why I'm sucking big time at my work here...its like self destructing..so i get to have a reason not to stay here...

but really
i think
i
think
its
time
i
say
yes
to
settling

with sean..

that's why i wrote this freaking post..
and because i am finding reasons to convince myself this site is worth keeping...