I can't sleep.It's 12:40 am already and i still can't sleep.I still got the high from purchasing my new footwear and maybe I'm to psych on starting work on sunday.yeah...about the work, I don't really think I like the job...I know I know it...it was hard getting the job and all that jobhunting and I know I've been such a whiner(cez knows that) but since I started my first Interview and got the hang of things...plus job offers(which by the way are not bad at all)I don't know if I should decline or accept or tell them I got hired.1st was prime,it was all new to me, the IQ test the psych test the interview and there was PBCS it went smoothly after that..Genesis..valulife (which sadly made me lost in alabang but the offer really was good-great even-but iI had to decline given the circumstances.And prime called for a 2nd interview and I was practically hired right there and then but since they could'nt give me a specific date when the work will start I still had my options open(coz seriously i was in crunch time-my dad's ultimatum)and DR. chua offered a job...and its was so overwhelming that out of the 13 companies I applied for online (all as RMT) more than half replied with not just an interview but a job offer...how lucky can I be?all this time I kept on whining I need a job I need it asap and I only needed a little effort and jobs looked for me not the other way around...I had PLAN A PLAN B PLAN C -you know-incase things don't work out-but I apparently I don't need PLAN B and PLAN C.Plan A was enough, is too much even...
but like I said...I don't know how I feel with the job I decided to take,Its a new company soon to open,I am one of the 3 RMT who will pioneer the lab.It will not be the same as what I'm used to do. happy-no doubt about that- it's just that...what if the other jobs I decline-sure jobs-is much more better?much more nicer?
I don't know...maybe I feel this way coz really I'm weird.
I am awake just wondering of all the what ifs...and with my new job, I haven't even told them I have an application for abroad and I can't commit for more than 6 months-a year is long enough-what would they do?should I decline now,or I should make them decide.plus I'm not really good with people, I mean I try to think I'm a well rounded person, I converse well with diverse personalities, but really I lack PR.(my mind is super extra weird tonight)hmm I think I'll stick with playing platinum suduko for sleep therapy than dragging myself out of bed and in front of the freaking laptop...i should go...i should...