Monday, October 25

My body clock is all messed up.slept at 4 am earlier, woke up 5 hours after. had my hair re-curled, did the laundry while waiting for the treatment, made lunch after the treatment, finished the laundry after, ate lunch.I did all that while I was half asleep.damn
now I wanna sleep badly but fighting the urge coz I know it wont do any good for me tonight, again.

Its election day today, heard ours was postpone because of the delay of the ballot boxes. I was thinking of practicing my right, since I failed to vote the last time, but seriously, now that I'm more eager to vote, I don't know who to vote for really. so it got me thinking, all the same, my vote will be futile.but still have time to change my mind, since tomorrow will be our voting day here. Celeste said I should just make "chamba" or something, but I don't really wanna do that, its more of a waste to do such than not vote at all.

now, since I'm fighting my urge to sleep, been thinking of stuff and I'm starting to get stress out again. I now have just few weeks to figure out where to get my spending money for my planned birthday trip to VIGAN, not to mention I need to save up for the holidays, for all those gifts I need to give out, plus I'll be spending my holidays with Sean and I don't wanna let him spend for me for the entire month he'll be here.plus I still need to buy the jacket I wanted to give him a my birthday/Christmas gift.urgh I'm stressing about money now.and to top it all off, I want so many things for myself for this Christmas.ghad
clearly being jobless and a BUM is not suiting my needs. why the hell did I take the sabbatical in the first place is beyond me.now i really need to step it up or I will ever get all the things I want, on my own.
I need temporary sponsors!
My sister originally offered to pay for my trip but since the Canadian Embassy already gave out the deadline for her papers, I'm to shy to bother her with my needs and wants, now that she's to busy fixing and doing stuffs. Still my *fingers crossed* that she don't forgot about her promise. Coz I really would hate to cancel everything.

thats it!
I'll nap this angst off
maybe I'll get a clear head later

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