aug. 11, 2005

4:19 am

On the window beside my bed in ventura dormitory, the view i get to see from afar are huge buildings for what i assume is ortigas center. I assume with a huge bright "ericson" light i see from here. I assume coz thats what i remeber when i see Strat100 and 2000 through my aunts office building down megaplaza. So i assume its ortigas center from her..

It's not really that attractive amids all the noise and "foggy" pollution during the day but when you look at it now, with the early morning light, together with the dogs barking downstairs,few jeepneys on the road, and the good smell of freshly baked bread from the pastry down, it's quite tantalizing..Infact i can even categorize it as absurdly beautiful.

And for that, even if the time comes that i'll realize its not really ortigas im looking at, still its gonna be my ortigas...far but so near..

Ghad im already missing the city as i speak..=(

Im dying to go home, im looking forward on being home nextweek,but it sads me that im leaving manila, when now i've learned to love the busy, dirty, noisy metro. Now i know why some people choose to stay even with all the hardships that is in this place.Who can blame them? i myself gets tantalize by a mere view of peaceful hhuge buildings...talk about low...

Two months ago, i never did think i'll pass surviving the metro life, but look ast me..if you could just see me now...no one can instantly distinguish me from a local or a tourist. I even memorized all the stops LRT1&2 and MRT, ;learned how to commute via bus from sta.mesa to ortigas, cubao to bulacan and back.....i know iknow iknow... is not that bigga deal, but i tell you..its really something huge for me..imagione how shock everyone is back home..

For once i get to experience being thrown litteraly on a bus, coz im that skinny!, rode a jeep alone for a change..hugging all the pollution of this place, be stuck on a very very conjested trains..and im sheltered!!!hahahaha

Little things as such makes me feel so ubberly proud of me..hehehehe

And now its goodbye metro trains,pollution,noise,traffic, my dorm, friends from all over, and welcome home bicol..

Hmm...never really did appreciate goodbyes.. its sucks!!!! like hell..but thats life...

bright sidfe...i'll finally be able to eat some real and decent meal for a change!!!and im really gonna curse instant noodles,canned tuna, chicken, porkchops...well just for a while..hehehehe..urgh!!! the cold water for bath, rush showers, common bath, hot dormitory room, eeky water from the rain down the street...ghad...when i think of it this way, im really glad im going home..hahahaha!!!(contradiction!)

2 months ago im just a ordinary, naive, sheltered little girl from the province who doesn't have a clue of why on earth she's gonna "risk" her life living alone on a very unfamiliar and unwarmplace..now...im proud to say im a full grown metro girl!!hahahah! i wish...girl who finally got out of her own little bubble!

im teary eyed already..just thinkingofgoodbyes...

life goes on...

5:10 am