**I learned not to worry about love but to honor it's coming with all my heart (Alice Walker)**

With warm water and a day or two, you can force Fonsythia branches to burst into bloom. But you can't force someone to love you, and you can't love someone against your will. So don't work so hard on it. Just continue to express yourself with sincerity and humor, and cheery emails or invitations to jump start your social life. Be friendly and allow others to convide in you about their worries and disappointments and hopes. Allow them to be as real as you are.When you least expect it, love will swing by again, in all its richness and complexity. As the italians say "Every hill has its valley" Lonely periods do end. For now, maintain perspective.Learn to be happy. Life can be glorious, and you have no business taking it for granted.

**Behind passing clouds, the sun still shines**



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October 21, 2005
Friday
10:00 am

Don't go blaming yourself kiddo...really it doessn't matter who's fault it is now.Yah, i use to want to blame it all on you get you all guilty and all that shit, but really i didn't want that happening. I can't take it that you feel bitter...So just to set the record straight, i know were friends, but i really hope we could be FRIENDS, you know. I know your trying and thans for doing it. And for the last time, I odn't blame you at all. Things just really happened for a reason, i might not know what reason it is but it should have a reason, and a big one for that matter.What i hope now, is that your really happy and that she really makes you happy.


Love lots
Shanita
c",)