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nino jovic dacuya de leoz
09207563722

03-19-05
(5:45 pm) ano nangyari sayo?
(6:00 pm) nabasa ko kanina blog mo.hope mabasa mo msg ko sayo dun. di ako lasing nun huh, ngayon palang. nagalit nadin kasi ako sa sarili ko. mah? txt mo naman ako oh.please.
(6:18 pm) i still wear our ring...that would say it all...
(6:25 pm) kung ayaw mo na ako makausap, kukulitin kita.naisip ko na sunugin tong sim ko kanina.kaso tama si isis, kahit anong sabihin mo,ikaw padin si shana ko.=)
(6:31 pm) mamaya lana ako load.di nakita makukulit. MAHAL KITA MAH. mnahal kita ng tunay.sabi ko sayo magpataba ka,hindi magpapayat.=(kung pinopoblema mo ilong mo,papanose lift naten yan,hehe
(6:38 pm) what po ba nangyari?pinaparusahan ko na sarili ko dito,ikaw din pala..baka isang kamay nalang buhat ko sayo nyan..
(6:40 pm) what ba daw sabi ni doc?dehydration? how come?san disierto ka ba nagpunta? or hmm...don't wanna think about it...
(6:43 pm) nagrresearch panaman ako ng pangpataba mo...chat tayo ok? kelan ba? basta pagna full tank kana jan ng h20.txt me ok.puslit na ako sa mga lasenggong toh..
(7:18 pm) san ospital kaba?itulog mo nalang yan para hindi ka mainip.tapos palang ako maligo, gamit ko yung soap,deo,toothpaste at now yung buds mo.=) now ko palang nagagamit.
(7:20 pm) shampoo pa pala,baka isipin mo hindi ako nagshshampoo ng buhok..=P muah..

03-20-05
(2:21 am) lam mo dis past days i had dreams,series of dreams.your in my arms,holding me tight,then a part of it, i heard you saying while looking at me,"tapos na"
(2:25 am) that was lastnyt ang right there the picture turned into something ive never seen and the way i felt was pain so much pain i couldn't barely breath.and yun nagising ako.
(2:30 am) am longing for you..inisip ko what have i done.then i tried calling you,hindi mo sinasagot.then nagtext si mom then si isis,askng me what happen saten,if nagaway ba daw tayo or something like that.
(2:34 am) then tinext ko si redz to check you out gud timing kattext palang sayo.nagrereply kana saken nun.i thank god your ok.
(2:48 am) last time na nabasa ko blog mo,im not given much attention,kaso kanina was different, my heart read it for me and your thoughts got into me, DEEP.
(2:51 am) deep enough na marealize ko bakit ko nagawang saktan ka ng ganun.maybe siguro i was so busy sa nasa paligid ko.yeah busy nga ako.
(2:56 am) hindi ko alam naramdaman ko basta alam ko nagalit nadin ako sa sarili ko..sayo,ng simumpa moa ko..kaya dina ako nagparamdam sayo..
(4:08 am) lam mo yan din kinakatakot ko,na mawala kana ng tuluyan.dont be afraid, nasa saten dalaw naman yun. as long na suot ko etong singsing, im reminded.hindi ko toh hinuhubad.
(4:17 am) i was hoping ikaw yun.if you could be strong enough.
(4:39 am) now your talking, i like it.i hope i could fine the right word to say.i cant tell you anything yet, and i cant tell you why.just wagna muna naten pagusapan yun, if thats okey with you.
(4:40 am) paranaque,hmm good news, eh di madalas na tayo magkikita nyan.so san kana magschool?
(4:42 am) alam ko nabasa ko kanina,pagod lang siguro ako,mejo antok siguro ako.wagna magalit baka matagalan kapa ma full tnnk..
(4:51 am) san ka lulugar?eh di sa kaliwa k,kasi sa kanan mo ako pagnatutulog tayo diba..just dont rush things gusto ko matutunan mo self development now.and your doing it...
(5:00 am) nafeel mo na yung 'carefree' na sinasabi mo..dagdagan mo nalang ng 'sense of responsibility' thats what i want you to have.ive read it, your longing for it, it shows.
(5:04 am) you dont have to make demands.if you want it fresh,then we'll start from the top,don't you think?let it flow smoothly and naturally with deeper mutual comprehension.
(5:09 am) that would be the most comfortable way for the both of us. mah, im still your nonie =) etoh na siguro higher phase ng kwento naten.
(5:17 am) "both of us must forgive if we'll try to put things back the way it use to be.thats one thing we'l talk over andover,same thing as before. dont bring the past OUT anymore"
(5:22 am) sige pahinga kana po..mah, di kita iiwan,kahit anong mangyari,as in! ikaw ang babyko, munchkins ko, mojarie, fiance ko.promise yan in my cousins grave.love you mah.

(4:39 pm) hope your home na po.kain ka madaming prutas ok? nasa practice ako ngayon.just checking you out. muah
(7:00 pm) yung kanina, hindi ko sinasabi nangangako ako sayo...im just informing you,yun ang pinangako ko kay noel..anyways how your day?
(11:52 pm) mah, im thinking of yo po.. am still waiting for your txt =( kumusta na pakiramdam mo?

03-21-05
(12:21 am) may sasabihin sana ako sayo..please text me..
(12:32 am) well i guess tulog kana siguro..ok,gudnight na po. hugs and kisses for you! =)..saakin naman kicks and punches..

***at dahil wala akong dalng pen and paper.hindi din ako makapag sulat.naubusan nadin ng space sa sent items ang phone ko..hindi ko na maalala mga nereply ko sa mga text nya..
alam ko, im normally equipt with a 'photographic memory' (tama ba?etoh ba tawag dun?),hindi ko basta basta nakakalimutan ang mga bagay na mahahalaga at may sense sa life ko.kaso dahil nga sa pagod at drain na drain pa ang katawan ko, hindi padin magaling utak ko,namamaga pa hands ko,at hindi ako matigil sa kaiiyak ng walang dahilan..wala na talaga akong maisip sa mga naitext ko na reply sakanya..

one thing is for sure,maganda ata ang result ng pinagusapan namen.
nothing is definite yet pero hopefully things we'll be brighter this coming days.

******
just for clarification:

IM NOT SUICIDAL

nagkataon lang na nagkasabay sabay ang mga pinopoblema ko sa buhay ko ngayon,at yun bumigay na si little body ko...
tao lang po..hindi po ako suicidal

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